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Thursday, 3 January 2013

Grand Chase: Life Story~

Grand Chase

       Maybe I should write something about this part of my life too, shouldn't I?
       Well, this game is just a 2D game in which we raise the level of a character. And then, using this character whom level has been raised, we unlock other characters which was able to be unlocked through, usually, quest. And after we've raised the level of our characters high enough. There're plenty of things to do, though. Just go to dungeon to fight the monsters solo, or maybe with 2 or 3 friends to beat that dungeon. The rules in the dungeon is simple-well, if it's the simple original dungeon. We just have to defeat the monsters in a certain area, and after defeating those monsters, we go to the portals to be teleported to the next stage. We've to wait for the other player to come in to the portal too, though. Like that, until we go to the late area. In these area there's usually some special thing. Like we've to go through, well, cliff-in 2D shape- where if we fall then we'll lose one of our lives-oh yeah, there're three lives for every player on the dungeon. And also, in contrary to the low-level-dungeon, the high-level-dungeon usually have one or two special monster/s called mini-boss which was harder to fight than the common monsters. And of coourse, in the last area, there's this one monster called Boss. Boss's health bar are shown way larger on the monitor then the usual, well, usually so does their size.

This's the boss's health bars (it can gets to 40x, you know? =-=) 

       Well, that's the end story tale of the dungeon :D. Overall, these dungeon is just used for one sole purpose(From my perspective, though). That is fooooor, "Looking for Good Armors and Equipments!". Hell yeah, that's it. For what are those? Definitely, PvP. And so, let's get to the PvP part.

       PvP, or the short of Player-versus-Player stands for an event where a player fight against another player. Doesn't have to be through physical contact, but can be through many other way such as competing to destroy a box in the time meaning. But, the one I used to play was the one with physical contact. /+_+/ *slurp. They're best, really. So, there's two main type in Grand Chase PvP. First is the Team mode, where it can be played through 1v1,2v2,3v3 player. They tagged and try to make the enemies's lives from 3 to 0. And the other one is the survival mode. In this gaaame *spirited* we have to be the last person standing in order to be the WINNER!! Well, as usual, there's 6 slots of player. And in this mode, all the player who set ready at the first of the game will become enemy with every other player when the game has been played. And it's the same rule, we've 3 lives. Well, okay, that's the introduction. Let's get on to the next part: Greetings.

       'Hi, Name's Loki. What's yours?' 'Hmm? Freya? It's nice to meet you :)'
       Hha :D, that's my favourite fictional dialogue ever since I around.. mm, maybe 3 years ago. Doesn't really have any meanings, though. Just my deep dream(?) of meeting with Freya, my Freya. Meh, enough with the geje talks =-=.

GCID : GuardianLoki
Job played : Ryan, Sieghart, Mari

Guild : None (Well, never)
Couple : None (Never)

        Well, my nickname is GuardianLoki. Actually I want it to be GuardianOfLoki, but it seems it was too long and the game just couldn't bear with +1 alphabet-__-". I chose this name because I don't think I was tantamount with Loki at that time. So I chose to be his guardian.. And I've played Grand Chase, ever since it was still such a young boy. The game, I mean. I've played it since Open Beta on around June of 2010. (Launching-Closed Beta-Open Beta-Normal Season). Well, if you wanna know what Open Beta is, I'll tell you. Open Beta is used for, say, a test-run for the game for every players who wants to try it. And through this Open Beta, the game is fixed by the finding of bugs by player, or by the Game Server themselves.
       Okay", enough. And say, I played the game from that time, until now. I did break, sometimes, but I keep play the games after those breaks. Back then, the game was so much fun :D. Everyone supports each other in order for them to level up. Whenever we need help, there's always one. Not now, though =-=. Everybody just think of themselves(maybe me, too). And just like a mature society, people on the game are also becoming like that. There's good, and there's bad. There's people who do pensi(stopped play the game) and newbies who want to try the vastness of this fragile(? Nope, it's not fragile, it has strength), well, big world. Well, yeah, just like the real world. There's this one thing called, 'regeneration'. And there are guilds out there to train them, yeah, 'Pengkaderan'. Of course it's almost the same as the real world. All of the player's are humans, afterall =-=.
       And next, the place where my inner maturity grows. The place where I look for myself: PvP.

       Say, now, my win is around 5040 and my lose is 2020. In count, my win rate was at 71.4%. Analyzing the facts: It means I've played for some 7060 games. Which must have means I've faced thousands of different people. I've won for around 5 thousands of games. And have been beaten for around 2 thousands of games. Those all are for around 2 years.



        Going through those all. I've learned many things. About others, about myself, about winning, about losing, about being disliked by someone, being liked by someone(?), go through mouth debate over the game, hating something because of the unability to accept lose, and so on. But, then, my win rate is 71%. Where there's winners, there will always be losers to make it balance. And here in this game, I was considered as 'the winners'. In facts, I do still loses many games. Because of one thing. Another thing that I learned from it. 'The truth is that, the winner comes from those who adapts best, and not those who win early'. It's real, though. When I do 1-1 fight. We adapts our own style so that we can best beat each other. And the real winner doesn't always be the one who won at first. He might had won at first, but as the next games come. He might not be able to become the winner anymore. It is the one who can best adapt his style with his enemy's style that will do the streak win-that's when one player's style truly dominates the other's style- and comes out as the real winner. Mm, maybe that's all that I want to write for today. So much already =-=. Oyasuminasai~ *ketularan

         PPHEEEWWW, finally it's over--". 23:01 already.. Well, take care there :). See ya everyone~

                                                                        \\ Beautiful \\

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Thursday, 27 December 2012

Best Canon Ever?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jXC9tuumjiA
Beautiful. Wish I can play it too :'< *deadly envy. Kapaaan yaa, keren banget, hiks..
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Friday, 21 December 2012

Tolong. Ya Allah.

Apa ya? To be honest, I'm not feeling really down. Maybe I'll just write some thing that happened in the previous Parerela's Diklat. Many things happened there. But my main topic here is the wave of sadness that I felt when I'm back from there, Cilaket. We're going back to Surabaya using-as usual- TNI truck. There're two trucks, and they're used for both the committee and the participants. Well, at first I was offered to accompany the juniors in their truck. But, then, I replied not. My reason(read: alibi) was because isn't it more appropriate if the one accompanying them were the main committee? ;p. While actually what I thought was, well, I didn't see Freya there~ Nope, not gonna ride that truck :p~.
Enough with the happy part. Let's get to the main part. When I first step onto the truck I chose to sat at the back of the truck. It was because there'd be more windy there. Well, the truck went by to Surabaya. I remembered that I imagined heading 1-1 versus a big-shielded guy, and I'm wearing a double sword. I was closing my eyes. And yet, my friends are sprouting nonsense about physics =-=. Just what's with him? And when I'm over practicing my imagination, I open my eyes and saw that some of the occupants of the truck were passed(sleep, I mean). And everyone started saying soo many things regarding my position as a 2nd Head of SKI where there's the Head of the akhwat's SKI. Man, man, man, another nonsense -_-. What's with that one guy. Seems like he's got some contagious disease from the Head of the BiGos SS.. And soon, everybody slept. And so the pitiful contagied guy. It was so quiet when suddenly one of my friend that was still  woke up, Reno, asked me why I tried to stand inside of the truck. He asked me one question that's very precise to what's in my mind. 'Ngapain haw? Bosen hidup ta?'. Instantly, I replied: 'Yo.'. But he doesn't seem really paid much attention to my answer. Meanwhile me, right after that. Stopped trying to stand. Instead, I thought deeply of his question. I put my shirt all around my head and so I brood over it. It was one really easy question with a really hard answer. I'm really really bored with my life. That whenever I thought about it somehow my eyes are always glistening. Aku bener-bener muak sama hidupku yang hidup cuma untuk ngelakuin sebuah dosa dan terus dan terus dan terus dan terus dan terus dan terus AKU LAKUIN!. Aku bener-bener udah muak. At that time, I cried in silence. How wouldn't I cried. The girl that have always been in my mind was right over there. And I seriously didn't deserve her. I haven't fulfilled the promise that I had made to myself from time to time. I'm not supposed to talk to her. I'm not supposed to be in her life (Do I?). I'm not supposed to be with her. I didn't think I was worth her with these burden I had on my back. Aku pas itu mikir bahwa aku lho sampe udah muak ngerasa muak karena aku berfikir bahwa percuma aku berfikir kayak gini sekarang karena pada akhirnya aku akan muak lagi gara" aku ngelakuin itu lagi dan pada akhirnya aku cuman akan ada pada endless loop kemuakan akan diri ku sendiri. Terus aku mau jadi SIAPA? Aku mau jadi APA? Aku udah muak muak akan diriku sendiri yang bener" muak akan diriku sendiri. In the end, I just prayed to Allah, in tears, while sobbing, that I'm not going to end up in that loop. Aku nggak mau ke sana ya Allah. Aku mau bisa ngelewatin ini dan bisa berdiri dengan lega di samping Freya. Aku bener-bener berharap Engkau mau mengabulkan harapanku ini ya Allah. Masa depanku. Tolong aku.
Jaga dia ya Allah :'). (In the end, I'm pretty down, huh? So be it. *sigh).
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Saturday, 8 December 2012

Same, Different Regret.


And I was hoping that someone would be there to cheer for her. To make sure she was studying. To have enough fun with her when she needed refreshment and tell her to get back to studying when it's over. To tell her what might be out on the next exam. To remind her that she still should taken good care of her health. To make sure that her mood remain constant so that she could still focused when studying. To really look after her. To make sure that she was still going to do her best and kept her thinking positive about the exam. To encourage her that she was going to be able to go to ITB, Todai! To make sure that she was not lost on her struggle with herself. To make sure she got the best.
       And this is what happened. Sorry. For not being there for you. For not asking others to take care of you. My fault, too. To really loosen you at that time. But please, stay positive, don't be like me. I would really hate it if you were to be in the same sorrow dimension world of mine. If that is what you had chosen, so be it. I don't want to say much. Just do your best. May Allah be with you.
You're in my prayers,

             Me



Up to you to believe it or not, guys. Best regards. Loki-Arawari.
(Just as information: Some part of me has came back, guys~ wish me the best, 'kay?)
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Wednesday, 5 December 2012

Wrecked.



                                                                 Alright, --. What?
                   Well, maybe I'll just write some things that has been on my mind these past days.

                                                                                 ...
                                                             Wrecked. Everything.

Almost, though, just as hyperbole~ But my life's been really really ... Kacau.
Saking kacaunya sampe aku nggak yakin yang mana dari aku yang pantas untuk dipegang.
Still the same as before, I don't know what I should be thinking. I'm still lost. Or so I thought. I'm killing myself, my own personality. Maybe that's the price for being a better person, huh? Even I myself didn't really sure that things will work out fine. Nothing of me can be held for a grip of surity. I think that's it. I lost grip of my own self. Pemberontakan oleh diriku sendiri pada diriku sendiri. These are getting crazy. I really am unstable and undefined. And tomorrow(whut? I've predicted it? Nice one, bad guy!), I mean yesterday -- and the other day I played for long while it was still exams. This's the most 'suram'-est UAS in my life, really. The main cause wasn't the UAS itself, but my life, and the UAS succeed to make it worse -_-v. Man, don't trust 100% to anything and everything that I do and I said in these days. I'm really labile right now, yeah, the things I've been holding onto is falling apart-pinjem kata" Yuumei. And yeah, I'm killing another side of myself right now. Or trying to make second personality? I've ever thought of that. But really, the other side of me is taking control of me and I accept it. I haven't tried this way, so maybe if I try it then some things will work--while others don't -_-. I just wanna control myself and if it's the price, so be it. Tapi UAS ku terbengkalai, many things didn't work out well. I'm losing myself, I'm losing my inner happiness, I'm losing my smile, I'm losing my usual happy moment with my friends, I'm losing her, I'm losing my UAS's score. Sisi bahagia dan senang-senangku lagi dipegang sama sisi negatif, I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't be like those. And the effect? Aku ngelakuin beberapa, oke fine, banyak, hal bodoh yang bodoh banget untuk tetep bisa survive (?). Aku beberapa kali ran away from my own life. From the title of smalane, from the words that I said to all smalane. I'm being not as positive as before right now, really. Well, you know? I'm happy I'm not a really masochist guy, if yes, I don't know how my physical condition right now's genna be. And now on my mind I was thinking of just memutar-putar badan dengan tangan terentang terus muter" dan muter" sampe nabrak tembok, ada tembok tambah dikencengin biar tambah seru, tambah 'brak' dan muter" kepalaku juga biar 'brak' juga. Nendang muter juga, yang penting kenceng, GILA>:. >>>>>;>akl;sdja;sljkd

So, don't trust 100%-ly for everything I've said up there. Just take the facts and for opinions, it's really labile. Meanwhile, you know? Actually questioning and doubting my own words leaves a really uneasy feelings on my self. But what should be done? I'm going crazy these days, kehilangan akal sehat buat bisa mikir yang mana yang akal sehat yang mana yang bukan. Otakku bilang ini, badanku ngapain? Itu...

I really am loosing her-and I mean it ._. . The feelings, : (. Where's it? God, Allah, help me.

-- Me, Loki, Hawari.
np: Going Crazy - Loki (Asal tulis)
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