Change

"The secret of change, what was that again?" Loki recalled as he cycled on his way home.
"Um.. To focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new?". "Yeah, that's it." He ensured.

Lately, Loki has been trying to carry on his life to a better place. But there's something that he thought is lacking. Often, he's too rushing. Too spontaneous. Maybe that was what had caused his life's still in some way, miserable.

Although he had listed all the things he wanted to do for the upcoming holiday, he hasn't made any priorities, plan, outline. Yup, not PLAN, not even PRIORITY.

He's just somehow, unwilling to make a good plan. Okay, now what was it means to be a good plan?
"A business plan will be hard to implement unless it is simple, specific, realistic and complete. Even if it is all these things, a good plan will need someone to follow up and check on it." - Tim Berry, Hurdle: The book on business planning
 The plan he has made is simple, kind of realistic, not too specific, and the most concerning part is, incomplete.

"Mm hum, maybe that's it?" --- Well, let's give it a try!

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Stories.. ?

Hello, world..
Long time no see, worldie ~
So, I'm gonna tell you some stories.

First thing first, I fight for my dreams. I fight hard.
But just like now, 11:32 PM, 1 hour ago I just got back to my home.
And here I am, killing myself, my scores.
And the next day I'll be slacking off because I need more sleep.
I d i s l i k e SLEEP!

I wanted to keep this eye open.
I wanted to remember about..*whisper.
I wanted to study Arabics language.
I wanted to get my Qur'an recitation back, all of them.
I wanted to paint my bicycles :<
I wanted to write a story about my consequent dreams about *whisper
I wanted to know how come Mr. Z. can talk about the one I liked once I was in my junior high.
I wanted to run in the rain.
I wanted to be not alive, I lost meanings.
I love you, myself. Don't die on me, 'kay? : )

I wanted to discover who my future wife will be.
I wanted to drive a Ninja and the families of motorcycle.
I wanted to take on Kendo practice with Chan".
I wanted to get my abstract drawings done.
I wanted to go to school early in the morning.
I wanted to go to the mountains.
I wanted to take on as many try out as possible.
I wanted to study Islam from a wise Syeikh or Ustadz.
I wanted to make my life more directed.
I wanted to talk with *whisper
Coz I'm fragile, I'm vulnerable, and all the more so I want to make some things certain.

I don't want to sleep. But I HAVE TO!

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Withdrawal Symptoms

I've been on NoFap streak for about, well since January 2nd, maybe? Which means this's the longest I've gone, that's 28+20=48 days. And you know, I feel bad.

I feel that no body cares about me except myself. Ha, ha.

"Iyo Haw, awakmu iku situk ae, nek akeh2 gak kuat dunyo iki."
Talk sh*t.

I no longer able to cry anymore. It's like my heart has been frozen by the raindrops that's being pour to me endlessly as I run through the rain.

I feel strong, and on the same time, emotionless. I feel numb. I can think, but I cannot feel.
My heart has lost its sensitivity.

Loneliness just hit me pretty hard. Good Luck, Haw!

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Luv The Rain

Standing in the rain makes me realize how cold life really is.
How I know that what I'm going through is real.
When I know I'm not in my comfort zone.
I'm pushing myself to feel the rain pour down through me.

It's such a great realization.
It's such a huge blow to me.
That life is cold. It has never been warm.
All the warmth served was just illusion.
Life is harsh, Haw. Life is rough.
And you've to got through all that!

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Blind? Fight on!

Cool Blind people. Let's just say it sucks having to live meaningless life because of having a misused eye..

Ray Charles

Born poor and black during the depression, things already weren't going Ray's way. In his own words: "Even compared to the other blacks...we were on the bottom of the ladder looking up at everyone else. Nothing below us except the ground." Despite a life that was already sounding like the worst parts of a racist Disney movie, Ray still described himself as a happy kid. However fate, clearly not being enough of a dick yet, had his younger brother drown in a bathtub right in front of him. Horrified at having to witness this, his eyes just gave up and started to stop working. Rather than get all teary about this like a regular dude he just got right up and learned himself some piano. Which as you may already know, works out quite well for him. Just in case you don't, he became one of the greatest musicians of his time, called a genius by Frank Sinatra. His popularity even helped bring black music of the time into the mainstream.

(picture of wiggers captioned: which lead to this)

Like most cool people he also had a drug problem and has said that he "enjoys getting behind the wheel," which is both most the awesome and most incredibly scary combination ever. I live in fear of the day that I pull up to a red light and glance at the car stopped next to me, only to see a blind man look at me from the driver seat, drugged up to his useless eyeballs and daring me to race him.

 Esref Armagn

Esref Armagn was born in Turkey in 1953 both blind and poor, so he wasn't exactly off to a running start. But as his young friends were just beginning their exciting careers as street urchins and pickpockets, he was hard at work teaching himself to write and paint. Did I mention he had no formal schooling to help him do this, and also that he's freaking blind? Yet despite all this he taught himself how to paint with full colour and perspective. Remember that guy you knew in college who was studying art? He sold a painting or two (which you thought looked like it was done by a retarded child with no hands but you just 'didn't get it') and was totally going to make it big just as soon as his website took off? When you see him at your next reunion, starting to lose his hair and still teaching high school art class, feel free to tell him about the blind guy who has had twenty art shows in cities all over the world. Ask him how his art career is going, sell any paintings lately?

 Yoo Ye Eun(Specially written by me)

She was born on 2003. Adopted when she was just 1 month as a baby. She was first well know on her first performance in a talent show whose competitors are mostly teenager to adult people. Thus she came and made the best record ever in the show's history. 95. While her competitor back then only scored 71. She was one gift that Allah sent to this world. She can play a music only after hearing it once without missing a tut. She doesn't complaint. The song she first sing whilst playing the piano was "You were born to be loved". (http://touchinglives2.wordpress.com/2012/06/07/test-4/)

Read more: http://www.cracked.com/funny-7949-5-blind-people-too-awesome-sight/#ixzz2mn12DjjH

Note: I'm motivated to learn about signal languange(inggris mekso)-bahasa isyarat..

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