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Okay,
So, I think, we need to talk, Haw.
About what? 
Her.

Mm? What's it?
Recently, I just realized what's the real cause for this obession of ours. Can you guess what?
Seriously? Wow, well yeah actually that's a pretty serious matters for me. I mean, the last time I'm obsessed with a girl, it feels like I'm pretty much putting myself on a distance from her. So, you've discovered what the cause was?
Well, from that statement you made, I can clearly see what's happening. What we were doing was really putting ourselves at a distance from her. We see her as something which is fit to fill our emptiness, but we aren't really thinking about how she felt. We only see her that way, as something that fills our emptiness.
Whut what? How come that's your conclusion? I still did talk to her sometimes, y' know?
Yes, yes. We did it together, remember? How funny of you. But from this experience of ours, I think that we're only looking at her as a profile, as a figure to be always looked upon. Not as a human who might want to be friends with us. We put her at a distant range from us. We don't let ourselves get closer to her. We don't let ourselves see the human-ish side of her. We didn't see her flaws. I think that's why we're so obsessed.
So you think we actually need to get closer to her to stop being obsessed with her?
I dunno, but that's my point actually. We need to see her when she's in a good state, and when she's in a bad state. We need to understand more about her from a human perspective. A human who needs social contacts, friends, supports. We shouldn't have seen her as someone who's already complete, who doesn't need us at all. She might need us, you know? She isn't flawless. She did sometimes make mistakes, and sometimes she needs someone who understand and give her the support she needs.
You say that as if you've done that before, bro.
No, no. This's just another form of my regret for letting our last 'something' friendship turns into a desperate guy and her crush figure.
So you think that what we should've done is just forget that she's our crush, and instead we come to the sea of her life, and start swimming, and diving there? Rather than just seeing that ocean of hers from the sideroad?
Yeah, I think that's what I mean. We need to come close to her as someone who wants to help her by her side. I think that's much more gentle than just seeing from afar, you know?
But it's just that I think I'm not that useful enough for her, bro :( . I never thought that I'll be someone good enough to be by her side. I was still under that nightmare that I might hurt her later on if I were to get close to her. 
Yes, I can see what we're afraid of. But don't you think that life's just too short to let something which hasn't happened yet to overwhelm us?
Yeah, but is it okay for you to do something for other people? I mean, what'll we get from doing something for other people? For her?
Well, we'll surely get closer to her. We're gonna be able to see her right from her side, when she's taking a decision, or when she get scolded by her seniors(huehehe). I just don't like it, you know, when we like someone and then we just sit back and watch her struggling. It's enough. I want us to be real in helping her. 
So, I should try to get closer to her circle in order to support her from some other side? Instead of just being someone who's far of her reach?
Yep.
Without her knowing?
That's better.
Should we talk it out to our parents?
Yes. We need to have a more objective opinion.
Okay then, it's settled.
Yeah :)

See you, 'her'.

Haw2  
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Karena, in the end, menurutku ini kembali kepada whether we're a gentleman or not.